Reminiscing

I've been reminiscing today.  I hope you don't mind if I share a few of my thoughts about life.  All three of my kiddos have now joined the all day school routine and I am left home alone during the day to fend to myself.  Alone.  What I thought would be an enjoyable day of peace and quiet, has turned into too much time to think and I just had to get these thoughts down on paper before I forget what I'm feeling.  I miss those not so 'little one's' more than ever.  They are completely nuts at times, but they're mine and I love them so much!

I marvel at the beauty of my life, that things can become so completely upside down in just a few short years.  I never imagined I would be done with diapers, nap-time, bottles, Desitin, Blue's Clues, and all those things that encompassed my life just a few short years ago.  Those years were my "FOG" years...utter chaos at all times, morning, noon, and night.  Especially night...sleepless nights rocking and rocking and rocking my babies...those sleepless nights are vanishing as the years pass.  I'm okay with that for now as I love my sleep...LOL.

And now I'm sitting here trying to enjoy my time to myself.  It's quite hard to let go and just enjoy it.  I'm not at all lonely, I love being alone.  I guess I'm just reminiscing today about how blessed I am, how truly amazing this life is for me.  That I get to be loved by the best husband in the world.  That I have three beautiful, amazing children that call me Mom. I'm so grateful for sweet blessings, for time to reflect, for moments of quiet when I can just be grateful.  I don't know about you, but growing up wasn't easy for me.  I may never be grown up...I still feel like a teenager some days.  I have realized lately that my dreams as a youth then can't compare to my reality now.  

It was a tear jerker for me as I watched my daughter, who entered the 6th grade halls yesterday. Alone. She looked back at me with that never ending heart stopping smile.  **Sniff**  It was like part of my heart was ripped out.  She was so ready to begin her new adventure in her "growing" up.  I was ever mentally holding onto the apron strings,crying for her not to be so willing to cut them so quickly and easily.  And yet, it's part of life and I want her to be the energetic, independent and confidant young lady she is becoming.  It's a double edged sword.  

So from this Mom to you, the answers don't always come easy, the best advice besides kneeling in prayer, is to TRY EVERY DAY.  That's all we can do.  Try to do better, try to be better at better things! Try to improve a little every day.  So with that.  I have a printable for you.  You know I love me a gorgeous printable!  This is to remind each of us to try, it comes in an 8x10 size only.  This printable was created by me using Alamama's Pressed Petals beautiful new kit "I Am Beautiful" available at The Digi Chick at 20% off this weekend.  Thanks Alamama for allowing me to use your amazing kit to create this freebie!  You're amazing!  Hugs, Andi

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(Fonts used:  Great Vibes and Artifika)